The New Year?

It's coming to that time of the year where a new year is beginning. The year 2012 was a very interesting year filled with laughter, happiness, disappointment, sadness, and many more emotion. My hope for the new year is that people will learn to appreciate the people around them more and include them in things because to be honest i am a very emotional person who doesn't have a very good relationship with girl friends and i hope this year it will changed but i'm not so sure yet. i hope to get better grade in this coming year and get into the university i want to go to and hopefully go to an out of state school. I think that will help me get to know myself and the people around to see if they will do care if im gone. This year i hope to learn more about myself and the people around me and to surround myself with people who do actually want to hang out with me and actually doing it instead of saying it. Maybe i just need to find better friends or not have any friends at all cause my family and my boyfriend will be enough for me because they do actually hang out with me. Let just see how the new years goes. There is another wedding coming up so we will how it goes from there. Happy New Year everyone!!! Be safe!

Cherish the people around you!

These couple of days have been tough because my grandma just recently passed away from a heart attack. This came out of the blue for everyone and i think this is why it makes it so much harder for everyone to believe she is actually gone. Every time i see my aunts, uncle, and grandpa cry it makes me cry because that was their mother and my grandpa wife. i cant imagine how they feel and how hard it is for them. Losing a mother is the hardest thing for everyone because your mother rise you and you think she will always be there for you and sometime you forget that one day she wont be there anymore. This is why we should spend more time with the people we love and make the effort to see our families and friends because one day they can disappear out of the blue and leaving us regretting how we never spent anytime with them. This really opened my eyes to see my family more even when i am busy but i should try and make time for them. i am truly sadden that i didnt spend enough time with her because i thought we will have more time together but we didnt. It still feel like a dream that she is gone, i can't believe that i wont see her anymore. I think it wont hit me until i got to church on sunday and i wont see her there or when we have a get together and i wont see her there. That's when i will realize that she is truly gone but at least i will know that she is not hurting anymore and is with god in heaven and that she is not alone. Rest in peace grandma.

Life and some other stuff...

Lately i've been feeling depressed and not wanted in this world. School has been stressing my out so much that i don't even know what to do anymore. There's just so much work to do and sometime i can't seem to get all of that work done. I feel like i dont have anyone to vent too but my boyfriend. I can't even talk to my friends because i feel like i dont even have any. I feel like they always tend to leave me out because they dont want to hang out with me or that they dont even care if i'm there. I thought they were going to be my friends for life but to me it look like they aren't. Maybe i am a little jealous but sometime i wish they would care more and include me sometime, or just simply call and ask me if i'm doing anything and invite me but they dont. They always assume that i'm busy or i'm with my boyfriend. It doesnt hurt to ask sometime you know. A friendship is like a relationship, both of you have to work it out not just one person and i feel like i always have to do it first or none of them wont. I am already stress out about everything and now i have to worry about them. Sometime i wish i didnt care so much then i wouldn't be feeling like this.Maybe if something super bad happen to me then they will care eventually. I thought they were my friends but apparently not. So this is all i'm gonna say for now because i am very upset and hurt about everything and i dont have anyone or anywhere to go or to vent too. Thank you for listening.

Its almost that time again....

Hello!!! So it's almost that time of the year again where we all have to start making new choices again and what we want to change about our self or what we want to achieve. Yeah you know what i'm taking about...a new year. it's almost 2012 and to me personally, i think it's time for me to change myself, to be someone i want to be and to achieve my own goals. I really want to get my driver license this year and yes i know i say that every year but this is the year i really have to get it and plus when i do have i can do whatever i want..hehe. But before that we have Christmas, which is the best holiday ever because of the feeling everyone gets during the holiday is great. everyone is so jolly and merry and plus the songs..oh how i love to sing Christmas songs..hhehe. This year and next year i really hope i keep true to my resolutions and goals so i can get what i want and become a better person. So see you next year and a merry Christmas to all.

New friends that will last forever...

So recently i discover that no matter how long you know someone it doesnt mean they're gonna be your friend forever. Friendship is like a relationship where both people have to work it out to make i work. Will there are these new people that i have met a couple of years ago and we all had become amazing and great friends. They made me realize that they are a better friend to me then the friends i have known for a long time and i am very greatfull for having these new friends in my life. Even though we havent known each other for a long time i feel like i known them my whole life. that's how great they are. i deeply appreciate them for everything they do and for accepting me for who i am. i love them to death and hope that our friendships will last a life time. They are who i truly call my friends.

LAS VEGAS!!!!

So in about two week i am going to Vegas with my boyfriend and his family and im super excited. it's gonna be my first time there and my first time going to a different state other then California. Dont get me wrong, i do love Cali but i want to go see other states too. But overall i am excited and dont know what to pack to Vegas..Will then Vegas here i come!!!!

Moving Forward...

I'm so excited to start a new chapter of my life..moving forward on what i want to do and be. Like the saying goes "sometime life can give you lemon" but it's up to you to figure out what to do with those lemons. Do you squeeze the life out of them and end it there or do you do something better with them, like make use of their talent and what they can do. That's how life is and if you dont move forward and look on the brighter side you can make a better choice and do what you want and be who you want to be. In the next couple of years i'll be working hard to do what i want and maybe in some more year i'll be who i want to be. Maybe right now i'm not so sure who i am and who i want to be. I could make the decision to be a more aggressive person to get my point out there are still be this nice girl that i tend to be all the time. when the time comes i'll know and i'll like the whole world know that this nice girl everybody picture me to be may not be so nice anymore..will maybe but a bit more agressive and so on.

Friends.....

Sometime i feel like I'm alone in this world, like there are people who dont understand me and want to spend time with me. i feel like no one makes a effort anymore to be with the one they love. it's like all those people who i thought were my friends in middle school and high school were my true friend but it turn out they aren't. people always tell me that if u are too nice, there are people out their who would just take advantage of that niceness. Friends who care for another friend will make time to spend with them. Friends who dont care for another friend would not waste their time to spend with them and why should they if they dont care about them. True friends are the ones who know how busy you are but makes time to spend with you every other month to catch up on things. As long as they keep you in their heart they will always remain a true friend. So this is how i feel, i feel that your true friends arent ones you make in middle or high school. they are the one you meet at work and college. You are lucky if you can keep your friends from high school, those are true friends.

Iam a GLEEK!!!

So recently i just started watching glee and fell in love with it. Loved the show because of the singing and the story line of each episode and i love to sing so it's definitely a show for me. i just bought season one of glee even though i watch the season like 5 time already still love it. Cant wait until season two is out in dvd..watched that season like 3 time already...i think i might watch again before i go back to school on monday..ahhhh..im a totally GLEEK!!!!

Back to School...and I cant sleep

So school is starting back soon on the 4th of January and i am still up on a Monday morning around 5:33 playing games when i should be sleeping and getting used to my new wake up time 6:00 but i cant sleep. i am tired but cant go to sleep. Busying playing cityville on facebook...soooo addicting. i recommend people not to play it cause once you start to you can never start. But im gonna end it here and try to sleep, probably wont be up until 4 in the afternoon again. Night world.

Lunar Eclipse

So...today me and my sisters waited for about 40 minutes to watch the lunar happen and we did. it was pretty awesome but we didnt get to see the moon turn red maybe just a little. We did see it get cover by the earth shadow. We were standing out there for a while. My parents told us that usually when that happen back in thailand our people will go outside and scare the red moon away by hitting pots and pans together and shooting a gun because it was something but, which i think is weird. Overall it was cool to actually wait for the lunar eclipse to happen.

six days without school..

so last week, meaning the week of thanksgiving, i only had one day of school which is great but it made me feel like i didnt really learn anything. i felt like i lost everything i learned that whole quarter in those six days. The reason why i didnt have school was because of the snow. Don't get me wrong i love the snow but not going to school can make someone lose some knowledge. i feel like i have to learn biology all over again and as punishment for missing school for six days my teacher decided to give out testes this week. So what's gonna be on there, dont know...we didnt learn anything that week. But overall, i'm super EXCITED to go back to school tomorrow..whoooo!!!!

Men's Restroom...

So yesterday Nov. 6, was my hmong newyear. At the new year my camera battery died so me and my boyfriend had to go find a plug to charged the battery and the only plug we found was across from the bathroom. While my boyfriend was watching the battery i decided to go to bathroom, without looking at the signs i walked to the closest bathroom thinking it was the women but once i enter i saw a whole bunch of guys washing their hands. it was too late to turn around and leave without them seeing me but they did and one of them said "oh, wrong bathroom". i looked at them and just laughed and said "opps wrong bathroom". i walked out and a lady sawed me and said "almost there". i just laughed it off cause it was funny but not embarrassing. Lesson learned, look before you walk cause you might walk into the wrong bathroom..hehe

23!!!!

So i am turning another year older in about one week..how exciting is that..whooo!!!! Not really..i feel like i haven't accomplish anything yet. I'm almost 25 and that's the age i want to be married by but at this rate my goals aren't going to be met until i'm 30. I want to become a forensic scientist hopefully in about four year and that's probably when i am 30. My point is that i am excited that my birthday is coming up but i am scared that my life is not moving anywhere..it's still in the same spot where i left it...under a rock. My wish for my birthday is to hopefully get my associate degree of science by 2012 and get on with my life. So 23 here i come!!!!!!

HorseShoe Bend US National Park

So i have this new thing for google where it tells you places to visit before you die and i came upon this picture of horseshoe bend. At first i was like what is that and then i took a closer look and it looks alot like a horseshoe, that's why they named it that. It looks pretty amazing with the color of the water surrounding a big rock that looks pretty cool too. I would love to visit this place before i die and it will probably be a place i would not forget after i die.

Rain....

hummm..what can i say about rain..maybe the fact that the only thing i hate about rain is that it always try to get my shoes wet no matter how hard i tried not to get it wet.  Besides that, to me rain means romantic. Everything about the rain is romantic from every drops that falls to the ground. Rain makes people run from it to find cover and maybe under their cover they can find their soul mate. Whenever it rains i always grab my boyfriend and kiss him in the rain because i find it romantic and it's something everybody wants to do. Even the movies makes rain look romantic. The only bad thing about the rain is that if you say in it too long you can catch a cold..heheh..but overall i still love to be in the rain because i live in the city where it rains all the time so i have gotten used to it.

Sometime you got to leave to reach your main goal..

So today was my last day at my first job. Even though i may be sad to leave all the friends i had made but everyone is telling me that this is just the next step to my life and to more better things. I do believe that this job had gave me experiences to take with me to my future. Like they say sometime it's better to leave now when you are still young than to wait until it's too late. I can't wait to see where my future will go from here but to reach your main goal you have to be patient...which is something that i have a lot of..